Chapter Five, Put on Armor and Go into Battle.

I stepped out, but I don't know why. I sat outside blankly, while the whole mansion remained festive and spacious, yet so desolate. It wasn't until a maid came over and asked if I wanted something to eat that I realized my father had already gone inside for quite some time. I hurried back to the mourning hall.

Hehuan, the person my mother feels most sorry for in her life is you. She raised me since I was young, and I became infamous because of her. But don't follow in her footsteps. It's something you can't have. Remember to let go, love cannot be forced. My mother's last words didn't mention my father, but her gaze quietly looked out the window. I shouted like crazy for them to bring my father over, but my mother weakly grabbed my sleeve.

My mother passed away. I didn't inform my father and arranged everything alone. When my mother was alive, my father never took a look. Why force him to come when she died?

When my mother died, many men in the capital cried out in pain, while women made appointments to celebrate in tea houses and restaurants. From morning till night, the major restaurants were packed for two consecutive days. I was so angry that I rode my little red horse into a big restaurant and overturned tables, kicked and injured people. The major restaurants in the capital were in a mess because of me. Many noble ladies and young ladies were beaten by me and had blue and swollen faces.

"No one is allowed to cry. Mother doesn't want to see everyone crying," under my reprimand, everyone's sorrowful crying turned into sobbing, which sounded even more suppressed and uncomfortable.

"Xiao Qian--" I saw father holding mother in his arms, using trembling hands to caress her cold face. His touch was gentle, as if caressing a rare treasure. From the side, father's eyes emitted a soft light, as if looking at a beloved lover.

In the mansion, many maids were brought as dowry by their mothers. They have always had a good relationship with their mothers. Above the mourning hall, their crying is heart-wrenching. My already empty heart feels like it's being cut by a knife when I hear these cries, making me extremely uncomfortable.

Mother, you are the most promiscuous woman in the world, and I am the most lewd child in the world. What integrity do we have left? Didn't you say to follow our hearts and do whatever makes us happy? Mother gently stroked my face, but I did not see the sadness and guilt in her eyes.

I never informed my father because I didn't want to see him in a cheerful state after learning about my mother's death. It would have been unbearable for me. But I didn't expect my father to stumble into the funeral parlor.

Mother will always accompany my mimosa, making my mimosa worry-free for a lifetime. I remember how firm Mother was when she said these words, but she did not fulfill her promise and left me forever when I was fourteen years old.

Hehuan, don't call me. Your father hates me to the core in this lifetime, despises me to the heart. I am already dead, why bother making him unhappy? Most importantly, I am afraid of seeing him look delighted at my death. Let him be free, and I will be relieved. In the future, when he wants to marry, Hehuan, you must not obstruct. I have wasted half of his life, and he has made me suffer and endure pain throughout my life. It's enough, more than enough." Mother smiled and closed her eyes, but tears glistened down her cheeks. Most importantly, I am afraid of seeing him look delighted at my death. Let him be free, and I will be relieved. In the future, when he wants to marry, Hehuan, you must not obstruct. I have wasted half of his life, and he has made me suffer and endure pain throughout my life. It's enough, more than enough." Mother smiled and closed her eyes, but tears glistened down her cheeks.

But I feel that my mother's death was really not worth it. Ever since she saw her lifelong nemesis, the first talented woman Ye Chuchu, under the window of the restaurant, holding a boy's hand and walking side by side with my father on the street, that harmonious scene completely devastated my mother. Her last glimmer of hope also vanished when she saw this heartbreakingly beautiful scene.

"Xiao Qianー" The father's sexy lips lightly covered the mother's cold lips, and the handsome face was tinged with a faint blush, as if a young man in the first flush of love. The once clear and bright eyes now appeared infatuated. I was struck as if by lightning, stunned on the side. Doesn't father hate mother very much?

Mother stumbled back and said that the child was really good-looking, just like his father, and their family was really warm. That night, she drank a lot of alcohol and fell down. She never got up again. The doctor said it was a heart disease that had been accumulating for years and finally burst, and there was no cure or salvation.

I was deeply shocked by the doctor's words that had been weighing on my heart for many years. How could a mother with a smiling face have a heart disease? And to make matters worse, it has reached a critical stage? At the same time as I kicked the doctor out, I also gave him a good beating. Incompetent doctor, his words are simply nonsense.

Since I can remember, I have never seen my mother cry. She always smiles charmingly, with a smile that is full of charm and as radiant as flowers. I always thought that my mother was happy every day, that she would never shed tears. Without the love of my father, she still lives freely, boldly, and confidently. But it turns out that my mother does have tears.

I followed my mother's last words and gave a large amount of gold and silver to them, allowing them to remarry and have children, and live a free and happy life. However, I did not expect that they would have such deep affection for my mother. After leaving the mansion, they never married again for the rest of their lives.

My mother said I am useless, that I have squandered all her principles, and that I am seeking favor from others while losing my own dignity. But in private, she caresses my hair and advises me to give up, saying that what is not meant for you cannot be forced, and a forcibly twisted melon is not sweet.

Mother looks really beautiful.

I finally understand now. It's not that he doesn't like the matchmaker, but he doesn't like me. But am I a weak-willed person? The more he dislikes me, the more challenging it feels. After living for so many years, I have finally found my life goal. I can't give up so easily, especially since I have nothing to do all day. It's not easy to have the desire to fight for something, and I'm so excited that I can't sleep all day, just thinking about how to get him. The more he dislikes me, the more challenging it feels. After living for so many years, I have finally found my life goal. I can't give up so easily, especially since I have nothing to do all day. It's not easy to have the desire to fight for something, and I'm so excited that I can't sleep all day, just thinking about how to get him.

After I mentioned this matter at home, my mother and several fathers began to arrange it. They invited the best matchmaker in the world to propose a marriage. I heard that this woman is very eloquent and can turn a bad situation into a good one. She can make a demoness sound like a fairy, and make an old, ugly man look like Pan An. With her involvement, I estimate that success is guaranteed.

Over the next three or four years, I suffered repeated defeats in battles, but I persevered and became more courageous after each setback. My relentless pursuit eventually earned me the title of the most handsome man in the world. His repeated sarcasm, mockery, and insults made me the laughingstock of everyone in the capital.

It was truly unjust for my mother to die. Ye Chuchu's son, whom I visited later, had a cunning and sly appearance. He had none of his father's grace and charm. Later, I found out that he was not actually my father's child. They just happened to meet on the road and walked together for a while. I don't know if my mother was too far away that day or if her eyes were blinded by sand, but she actually said that this child was a spitting image of my father. It was this glance that took my mother's life. Life is unpredictable. How could my mother, at her age, have imagined that she would end up in such a situation? On the day my mother died, the mansion was decorated with lights and festive decorations. Red lanterns were hung, creating an atmosphere of celebration. At first, everyone thought that my mother had set her sights on another handsome man and forcibly brought him back to marry. In fact, my mother never forced anyone. It was always the men who willingly offered themselves. But the world doesn't know the truth and spreads rumors.

Xiaoqian, I'm here. I wanted to come back early in the morning, but I... This is the first time I heard Dad call Mom so affectionately, on top of Mom's memorial tablet, but Mom never had the chance to hear it.

Mother doesn't want to see you. You didn't come when she was alive, what are you doing here now? As for me, I hold some resentment towards you, Father.

Dad tightly embraced Mom in his arms, with a happy smile on his face, as if he was in a romantic relationship with his lover. Even if I were by his side, he seemed completely unaware. Dad's behavior makes it hard for me to believe that he hates Mom.

Huan'er, you should go out too," Father turned his head to look at me, his eyes filled with deep sorrow, but his voice was weak and feeble. I strained to hear his words clearly. In my memory, Father was always clear and bright like a fairy, how could he look so haggard now?

But unexpectedly, before the matchmaker Zhang could meet Qin Jian, she was kicked out by his steward, who said she was too famous. Matchmaker Zhang was depressed for half a year after returning, and she never understood why in today's world, even those with a good reputation could be swept out with a broom. In fact, I think it's all the fault of the steward of the Qin family. If he had expressed himself clearly and said that her reputation was too bad, Matchmaker Zhang probably wouldn't have been so depressed for so long.

My mother said she likes liveliness, she wants to live brilliantly, and die spectacularly. So I decorated the whole room very festively because white seems very lonely, and I don't want my mother to be lonely.

Since I had a romantic encounter with Qin Jian on the street, I started to investigate his background. Unexpectedly, this guy has a remarkable background. He is the third young master of the Qin family, one of the three major families of the Xiling Dynasty, and our families are also acquainted.

Héhuān, they are also pitiful people. You must treat them kindly, let them have plenty of food and clothing, a worry-free life, marry a beautiful woman, have several children to accompany them in their old age. What they want, their mother cannot give them.

One failure will not crush my fighting spirit, so I sent another unknown matchmaker to the battlefield. I guess this time he won't have much to say, but unexpectedly he was still swept out of the door with a broom. The matchmaker he invited couldn't speak clearly, and her employer wasn't any better either.

Curse me to death, I can laugh it off, but they should never, never celebrate my mother's passing so recklessly. My desperate cruelty has earned me the title of a notorious woman, but I don't care, after all, I have held the title of the unrivaled queen of the Western Capital for many years.

If mother had pretended to be dead this time, it would have been so much better. At least she could have received a moment of tenderness from father, and wouldn't have lived in such loneliness. But mother really died.

Fame is not good when it is too loud, and it is not acceptable to have no ranking. I found a matchmaker with suitable conditions in all aspects and once again went into battle, but the result was still a failure.

Before my mother died, she expelled my five fathers from the house, saying that the sky is high and the sea is wide outside, and they should have their freedom.

The doctor said that my mother is now in her last moments and there is no hope for recovery. I quietly changed her into a fiery red dress, as bright as a wedding gown. My mother smiled and asked me if she looked beautiful, with the demeanor of a shy young girl about to leave her home.

Is that so? Everyone says I'm good-looking, except for him-- I know who my mother is referring to when she says "him". In that moment when my mother choked back tears, I felt like the world was spinning, and everything became empty. Even Qin Jian, that pretty boy, seemed a lot dimmer to me.

She is indeed better than me in this aspect. Throughout her life, she has always pursued a man, using her power to pressure others and seeking personal gain. However, later on, the men around her came to her like bees attracted to honey. She no longer forced any man and relationships formed and ended naturally.

"Go out--" Father's voice was calm and steady, but carried great intimidation. His handsome face at this moment also revealed no joy or anger.